Genderfucking the world.

I’m pretty sure every single person on this entire planet has been judged. & you know, everyone reacts to it in their own different ways. I’d say I’m judged on a daily basis. I’m not gonna lie, sometimes it really fucking sucks. Like can a bitch just go to the store to get some food & not be stared at? Shit. Hahaha. I mean it doesn’t get to me to the point where I’ll cry or ask myself “Why Me?” I already know why. Usually when I go out, I’m always greated with a “ma’am”,”she” or “hey ladies”. It doesn’t bother me at all, it’s just really funny cause they have no fucking idea. & even after I speak, they still think I’m a girl. I’m not trying to make people think I’m a girl, they just assume. The fact that I do have long hair is what throws them off, I think. & when they actually see my face I get weird fucking stares. They don’t know if I’m a boy, a girl, a tranny, whatever. I am not transgendered, I don’t wanna be a girl. I’m just a bomb ass boy. But every day people don’t know. They just think that because i have long hair & I have make-up on that I’m a girl. Even throughout HS, I still had long hair, I never wore makeup & I wore like typical boy clothes. People seriously still thought I was a chick. & I’m over here like, if I was gonna try & be a chick, I would’ve at least made an effort to look cute. The world is full of ignorant people & I’ll be judged regardless. I’m a 6’2 boy with long hair & wearing make-up. Who the fuck isn’t gonna notice me? I’ve never had any incidents where I’ve gotten into any physical altercations or really verbal either. I mean yeah, people have talked shit & probably got laughed at cause they don’t know what I am but it’s just all talk to me. I feel like in the past I never stood up for myself ever. If I heard someone near me say stuff to their friend like, “what is that?” I’d just brush it off. I usually brush everything off cause I feel like I’m too good & too fierce to reduce myself to their level. If I say something to every single person who talks shit about me, then I’m obviously letting it get to me. But if I ever am in a situation where things aren’t going so cute, I will knock a bitch up. TRUST. There’s just a time & place for everything. It’s such a constant battle every day being me. & of course there’s days where I’m like, “Should I cut my hair?”, “Should I wear regular boy clothes?”, “Should I just be like every other gay kid?”. But there really is no limitation to being yourself. I can do whatever the fuck I wanna do. I don’t limit the person I am. I don’t ever wanna hide myself because I’m not what society particulary sees as a “typical” boy. But I am anything but typical. Yeah it sucks being judged but if I’m happy with being me then why the fuck should everyone else’s opinion matter? It’s true, I don’t have much of a tough skin, but I’d like to say I’m a work in progress. I have & will struggle with the life I live but I would NEVER be something I’m not. You either love my ass or hate it. Fucking simple as that. I’m gonna keep genderfucking the world forever <3.